- 2019 -

Make it work...

29 November

Drafts of Possible Texts to Speak -- from a need to address the audience, to clue them in so they can follow along...

I love Japanese Gardens, especially those fountains that pour into a bamboo vessel that tips over when it gets too heavy and comes back up empty just to be refilled again.

The slow filling up. The pouring out down, and it comes back and hits a rock.

Perhaps this is a person…water goes in, water goes out, it’s very natural. it makes sounds. It’s Japanese.

Working hard, being good, trying to enjoy. My parents taught me the filling up.

And the pouring out down has always seemed to just happen. (physicality!)

And these brief experiences of emptiness inscribe themselves, and mark time like the slow rhythm of bamboo against a rock.



4 poems
4 dances
How to contain them when they don’t go together yet? Talk about the processes that disjoined them…journey with lovers and friends and visas



These pieces don’t fit together actually. Or at least not now. They’re separate worlds…worlds to enter into and see where my spirit can travel.

It took me a long time to understand this. I found it through a lot of struggle and force and resistance. I think that it’s hard for me to let things transform slowly on their own without explanation or larger meaning. They just do. My habit is to want to know where I am and where I’m going at all times…but life isn’t like that. The living is in the letting things be, in order to be oneself.


Silence and coming back to being with audience
Birdy elements can be things in the silence to glue it all together
MAYBE a word or two to explain to audience…at least with Janis Joplin (or maybe it’s just a program note)

I could come and stand first with the jacket…and then place the jacket and then position myself. And then bird sounds and then dancing.
Afterwards I come to silence and unwind with directions and migrate out somehow
After trampoline I birdy soar and then come back to silence and maybe sit with audience after replacing trampoline.
After Loneliness I stretch out of it and stand
I can go organize the headphones for the next section and let things change on their own…maybe lights, etc
After dancing I can walk it off and go get the jacket just to squat again.

Birdy gorilla moment??

Text Tryouts...

Today I prepared a new structure for the piece.

I tried different smaller things so that the run could go more smoothly. I was lucky to borrow wireless earphones from Michaela for a scene. I also needed to come up with a "child mic" text or some form of address so the audience can have a sense of the tone, themes of the piece. Up until now, many people feel disconnected from me, and I feel disconnected too...I miss a sense of a journey...the parts don't add up yet or connect yet..so tomorrow is my task to try the new approach.