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Make it work...

24 November

Preparation for a Run for Michael + Feedback Notes After

PREPARATION

Birdy Flight 2x

Baby Caetano
-explain a story
-connect
-they’re the babies
-hold breath
-explain my god powers…with music, etc
-explain the machinery of the whole theatrical and imaginative space

Whale Songs (Zam 36)
-slow turn yin yang or strip?
-costume changes?
-free dancing?

Run Outer Perimeter
-holding breath
-yelling

All is Loneliness
-long version
-let the devil come out and play
-get back into spokes and Journey Walk with free dancing here
-Grooving through the dramas –use audience as my projections and thoughts…they embody those things
--grooving while secretly trying to plan my escape
-Fauno masturbation can reappear here!
-Into Pina In Place

15min Birdy
5min Caetano
5min Try
12min Loneliness
6min Techno
5min Love

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How to communicate the probem or the wish? For the piece

STUCKness
-frustration
-sadness
-despair
But am I STUCK? Why not just be happy?
--the probem is that I have ambition and I need to listen to it or else I deterioratet have ambition is to have a wish and I must GO for it and allow it!

Birdy
Repeat Birdy
Address (caetano) and BIG MAN
Attempt
Try
Loneliness
Techno
To Love Somebody


FEEDBACK FROM MICHAEL

Birdy with direction dancing got annoying

Corner was charged and interesting with the pre-address (baby caetano/address in silence)

Trampoline was like a movie scene…the way I set it up…like importing a packaged scene

Monkey sounds to drum solo in Loneliness …the drums should be LOUD!
-he was annoyed because the volumes were not clear

Pina InOut …I should space this! Place it!

Space Things: do practical things to give people a break…so space between materials for breathing and reflection

Address like a british explorer

Totem – go naked

Wear a bright blouse for Birdy?
Wear tie and nice slacks for TRY?

Abraham Hicks says “The Eternal Incompletion that is You/Me…in the address

Notes from watching the Run on Video

Birdy takeoff was a little slow this time…

When I do this windmill tornado move with the piano…I can really sustain that…cuz I think it’s beautiful :)

Tricky to find the right balance between urgent and too rushed. It felt too rushed, and I couldn’t really land into the dancing, so it didn’t hit a natural flow as well. I can indulge the moves when they come…slow them down so they can be seen and experienced…the length and stretch!

Michael says to take care of the hands!! In general but especially in this section because it sets everything up.

For me to rehearse:
-length and stretch of birdy/journey moves
-try to establish the grid very explicitly and formally…even at the risk of being boring…but to insist here
-I could come back to the Grid once Jazz finished and insist on that very mechanically, rhythmically…with small variations…maybe could get fluttering/busy/urgent again, but only to exhaust itself out.

Address to audience...
Trying to be ecstatically happy doesn’t work. I can be more normal and chill when I begin to make contact with audience. Otherwise it’s too much of a mime/clown show!

What I can do…
-I can explain my thesis…which is that I’m not speaking because I’m trying to sink in deeper into my body so as to be more connected to the world. I have therefore constructed this whole apparatus of theater so that I can have a structure to practice this life-long work. I’m trying to accept and integrate more deeply the words of Abraham Hicks: “Embrace the eternal incompletion that is you”. Or something like that.
-I can explain that I’m here and everyone is here to watch and that we can feed the field very systematically as a way to fly…but it has to do with our focus and precision of energy.
I have powers to help, for example, the music! (here I can demonstrate how I can control the music when I want).
I can also ask if anyone knows how to fly??
I can explain that I want to fly out (connect to a desire where there’s jealousy and a gap!...i.e. Ahmed or Alessandro or Cairo or Mediterranean or Michael having sex with Martin, etc).
-Really explain that this spatial situation is a metaphor for my personal life and how it manifests through improvisation.

What to keep…
-urgency gestures like claps
-charging the exit/entry way
-the godly music powers
-I like the gorilla laughter…but could make it weirder like a recluse kinda guy who has mood swings…charming at first, but with an obsessive/desperate agenda/desire …so a seriousness right after
-run around is good. I can build it up a bit more. I can begin yelling from inside and then exit with that yell…

Take more time after returning into circle.

How to transition into TRY? I could put on worker/office clothes with tie? And put trampoline…then music…But first I need to give time to think of my strategy!

I don’t need to force what I do on the trampoline, but I should be connecting to emotional states…to really trying and the hopes and fears surrounding that.

I don’t know how to transition out of trampoline try. The music could abruptly stop when I land. That’s funny I think.

Maybe I address the audience again…”did something happen? Was that a good idea?” Or I have a new tactic which is to hold my breath and try to levitate? Jesus, levitation walk like I did back in Meg’s first audition/workshop? On tippy toes perhaps…and from center along a spoke? Make fun of Bolero move? Or Nijinsky Fauno? Or Pina Café Muller? Or something transcendent like glorious? Or swan lake pose?

Try to be so holy but then say fuck it! And just be bohemian hedonistic…and this brings on Loneliness song…
--later in song when I begin ecstatic Macumba dancing I can do the roller car derby move making fun of an earlier holy walk I try to do!


What works in Loneliness Devil
-easy going dancing around…I can just live! And fuck around!
-Macumba man
-masturbation works with fauno start…but then not clear when face down…gets all serious from then on…maybe I can keep a sense of playing a play with birdy death face up?
-maybe Rodin sculptures can happen post gorilla man? So that energy condenses…can go into silence even.

I could get bored of drum solo, but just sit and listen to it and let it play…allow the audience some breath for sure!!!

To get into techno??

To get straight into last Janis Joplin song??


Notes from Talking with Ahmed after he saw the video as well...

Silence instead of bird sounds at start…

Try with shoes…for practice and to see if it supports my dancing …to see about grounding. Sound of feet on floor is strange…shoes could bounce me more

Ahmed says I can just grid and not get messagey with people…keep it

Collapsing after circle run attempt is a drop of energy

From fauno masturbation…go straight to floor is ok

Convulsion with shoulders…into gorilla is a cool move